Wednesdays

Wednesdays are probably the busiest day of the week for me, but usually the most eventful.

Yesterday I went from school, to lunch with mom, to voice (I can hit a high D full voice now :D), to work, to Liberty.

Liberty was great, had a pretty fun ride there picking on casey the entire way, and falling in the isle. Liberty was cool. The band was great, and the speaker had a great message.

Then we went to Mo's, I didn't eat, but I just drew on the back of a "how's our service" card.

Drove to the church, then brought Casey home, and I didn't get home till 12:30 or something.

So yeah, wednesdays.

2 hour conversation, destruction and rebirth

So i just had a 2 hour conversation with Dee.

I may not be wise, but I'm capable of finding someone who is. I forgive everyone! Truly I do. When I see you I will smile like every other person and know that no one will be hurting me the same way again. "I cherish the loss, a gentle reminder" -enter shikari

So forgive and forget is what I'll do, I'll delete everything, erase everything, forget all the lies, forget all the things I know are still being said behind my back when i turn away. But like that quote says, thank you for letting me be a little wiser, I'll cherish the loss, a gentle reminder as to not be hurt the same way again.

Starting tomorrow, I'm deadicating myself to the Lord. He can heal me now that I'm putting him first. I will become a leader at what I do, and perfect my craft, my gift of music. I will be known for my selflessness, my generosity, my ever growing kindness towards all of his children.

That is my new years resolution (though it is a little late), and I'm putting all of my willpower into it, all of my persistant nature into the fact that i will not hold grudges and I will be capable of forgiving all of everything in the past present and future.

Goodnight world, this dense infected forest of pain will be set ablaze tonight. The ground will be nourished by its destruction and out of that, beautiful confident trees will grow once more.

Dreaming with a broken heart

When you're dreaming with a broken heart
The waking up is the hardest part
You roll outta bed and down on your knees
And for the moment you can hardly breathe
Wondering was she really here?
Is she standing in my room?
No she's not, 'cause she's gone, gone, gone, gone, gone....

When you're dreaming with a broken heart
The giving up is the hardest part
She takes you in with her crying eyes
Then all at once you have to say goodbye
Wondering could you stay my love?
Will you wake up by my side?
No she can't, 'cause she's gone, gone, gone, gone, gone....

Now do i have to fall asleep with roses in my hands
Do i have to fall asleep with roses in my hands?

Would you get them if i did?
No you won't, 'cause you're gone, gone, gone, gone, gone....

When you're dreaming with a broken heart
The waking up is the hardest part

-John Mayer

His lyrics are amazing... They can apply to a lot of things in basicly anyones life. I kinda just like to sit and think about em for a while, and i like this song.

Sacrifice

So, after church last nigh, I actually thought about what I was telling everyone. You can only measure how much something means to you by how much you're willing to sacrifice. I've only wanted to sacrifice music for one person, but that's irrelevant. It has to be both ways, I guess. Anyway....

I'm at home, anyone wanna talk? I'm gonna go to work at 12. sooo..... I'll probably still be here till then.

Oh, and I may be buying myself a mustang for my 18th birthday. That, or some kind of convertible, can't wait :).

Not celebrating valentines day

Yeah, I've only had about 3 good Valentines days in my life, two of which were with someone who there is a mutual feeling of hate for now (surprisingly enough).

2007 embarassing (now burnt) teddy bear, picture frame (trash), and a lot of candy
2008 skating, panera (funny lady at the counter gave us two straws lol), heart shaped box(trash/destroyed)

2009........ i think i'll just go to casey's choir thing. She's a good singer.

By means of comunication

I can't like you without loving you.

I can't dislike you without hating you.

I can't ignore you when you exist.

This is harder than expected.

But my persistence is in this, not you.

I remember who you were.

I don't know who you are.

I remember all the good times.

I remember all the daily joys.

I remember how you cried, I remember why.

I remember how I hurt you.

I remember how you hurt me.

I remember how I was walked on.

I remember how you lied.

And now this is all I have to talk.

It is my only means of communication.

Discoveries and songs

So today, in math analysis, I figured out that people really can't think for themselves. The have no interest in what is unnatural to them.

f(x)=abs((1/x)-2)+3)

Seriously people, just plug and plot, it doesn't take a genius...

Anyway, so that's an average day in math (and we're still on review... just to throw that in there). I'm gonna meet my mom for lunch in about an hour and then go to voice lessons. Nick is funny, he kinda acts a little gay, but he's funny lol. So far on my list of songs I have one from Pipin, another from Les Miserables, one from fiddler on the roof, one from Two by Two, and another from.. the beatles. (lol) I'm getting better, I have a range of about 2 octaves and a third (average range for people is 1 and a half octaves or so). Then with falsetto I can basically go up another major 6th.

I actually impressed my guitar teacher for the first time yesterday cause I could keep up with him in the weird exersice he came up with. And it snowed when casey and I were in roanoke. (but never touched rocky mount).

Anyway, so I have lunch, voice, then i'm picking up T.K. (he wants a job teachin drums), then I go to work, Casey is going to meet me there, and then I have church tonight. My days are so full of stuff...... but its alright. At least I'm not as bored as I was.

Rain Days????

So last week, our school decided to be canceled for rain, for two days in a row. This week, when it actually snows, we get nothing.... Damn administration, they don't know what they're doing.

It's not like it really bothers me. I mean, yesterday I decided to skip and hang out with Casey, just because.... And then I hung out with Mack for a couple hours at Westlake. We tried to figure out the steel lap guitar.... Also my school days only consist of Physics and Math analysis, so I get out of school about the same time my sister wakes up everyday (11:45).

Yesterday-
-waking up casey at 6:50, hung out from 8am-9:30pm.
-watched silence of the lambs
-went to work at 12
-saw mack
-lap guitar
-new amps
-Mack stealing Casey's phone
-Me practicing triplets on double bass (gettin good)
-Me trying to write a solo to "The Dead Dream Forever"s newest hit single lol
-"Hey, Aaron... Do you ever get homesick?" LOL
-Some kid who always comes into westlake music to just play enter sandman...
-Starbucks and Gushers
-an hour conversation to a friend I haven't talked to in 5 years
-Hypnotic snow (don't put on your high-beams)
-"I believe I can fly!" LOL (again)
-Piper sleeping on my back (she's so cute)


Today-
-Wake up at 6:20 to drop mom off at work
-Realized school is not cancelled
-Kelly- "Did you do something with your hair?....no?...ha"
-JOHN DON!
-Physics- "It sucks... my son is better at me when it comes to... everything...... Except physics."
-Brettinie and I falling asleep in M.A.
-Erin going to get lunch
-Me practicing voice
-NEW BLOG!


Anyway... No day will be as eventful as last wednesday... Speaking of which, I think the lady totalled my car (if i haven't already said that in another blog). So I'm lookin for a convertible now.

Anyway, I'm gonna go pick up Casey, then guitar lessons, then church. See ya.