Would you even flinch.

It went from good, to normal, to horrible. I couldn't go to the show yesterday, because dev and mack were there. Not only that, but exactly a year ago from yesterday, was the same show. I almost wasn't able to go to that because my dad was slowly dying. I guess, for two years straight, I've cried throughout November.

• Yesterday, I go home after school.
• I pick up my Mom to bring her back to work.
• She tells me not to give Devin her Christmas present.
• I go home to train my puppy.
• After that, I go to pick up Alex from school.
• Then I go to his neighbor's house for voice.
• I go back to Alex's to play some music and smash bros.
  
• I pick up my Mom to go home
• I get my senior picture proofs in the mail
  
• We fight, she cries because she lost her husband, and I'm tearing myself apart.
• I'm breaking down on the inside.
• I almost text Devin saying "talk to me, or I drive this car into a tree." In which she probably wouldn't even flinch at the thought of my death, so it would've been pointless, because I really was going to do it.
  
• I'm getting worse.
• I go back to Alex's, and almost get in 2 car wrecks from my mental state.
• I play music, I play games, I do anything to get you off my mind.
• Then I break out my computer, and just talk to people, to spread this load I carry as to not make it so much of a burden.

Let's see if today is any better....